I'm Tired!

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." -Matthew 11:28

"For my yoke is easy and my burden light." -Matthew 11:30

I AM TIRED. I am used to being very busy and involved in various activities, but this is a different kind of tired. I am at the point of both physical and mental exhaustion. It is getting harder and harder for me to wake up. My initial alarm sounds at 5:10 am and I usually snooze through it. Mentally, I am drained. I am forgetting things left and right; I'm usually not a forgetful person. I thought I lost my credit card and my license. As you can see, this is bad. I am participating in a 30 day independent bible study challenge and I've been forgetting to read. Sometimes I feel like I'm literally in a foggy or blurry state of mind. I have so much to do, so much to plan, so much to organize, so much to keep up with, and it is literally wearing me down. Usually, hot showers, scented candles, and long gym sessions help ease this physical and mental tension, but my staples aren't working this time. I've been feeling like this for the past week or so, but today I decided to address it.

I had this terse conversation with myself while I was driving home from work. Yes, I'm always talking to myself.  I simply said, "Andrea, what are you doing to yourself? This isn't at all healthy. You have to make some arrangements because you will surely kill yourself at this pace." If you don't know, my mother died of a heart attack and my older sister constantly reminds me of this when she feels I need to slow down. So, I decided I needed to slow it down and prioritize some things. I am queen of the to-do list. There's a certain joy that comes with writing things down then crossing them off, but I do realize that my to-do lists are sometimes overwhelming. I also have to be in control of every minute of my day. I decided to scratch my list and figure out what I was going to do right here and now. At that very moment, I just wanted to get home and get dinner. I also was trying to make my 5:45 Zumba class. I wanted to wash my hair before class and I was hoping to grade a few papers beforehand. I was doing it again-being too freaking busy. A text message from a close friend played in my mind at this point. My dear friend said that she was going to stop texting me because I was too busy and slow to reply.  I'm  seeing the signs. Something had to give. Something was still missing.

Then it hit me. Did you pray? Have you prayed? Do you plan on going to GOD with this problem any time soon? I hate when I do this. I hate when I use my Savior as a last resort. I hate when I neglect Him. He is perfection. His bible is a manual for life. Tired? Hungry? Overwhelmed? Sad? Depressed? Jealous? Insecure? It's all in there. There are so many scriptures about being tired and stressed. His scriptures are our instructions. So instead of talking to myself and planning my own strategies, I started praying to Him.  He told me to take the night off. I never do this.Take the night off. Take care of yourself. Get back in His good word. Regroup. I did just that. I am feeling a million times better. "Truly my soul finds rest in God; my salvation comes from Him."

Thank you Lord.